Crazy Nite

This is the first nite I prayed to Jesus~
Well..
Before I pray, I was thinking to pray but I am writing my diary~
Smtg strange happen~
I cry without reason!!!
=.=
I cry in such a sudden bcuz I am sad and really no reason!!
After I cry, I go pray to Jesus~
I felt better~
Cuz of I can say smtg out~
I said that I am not happy and I wanna find my happiness~
THx Jesus~
I suddenly miss Sze Min??
Or suddenly miss sister??
Anyway~
that is one of the reason I cry~
Well,
cheer up my frenz~
dun learn me >.<

Confussed~

Oh My God~
I juz go that CF camp for two days!!
I think I am in love with my leader!!
Help~
??
Now, I am so confussed and keep on asking myself a question~
Do I still love sister??
Or have I changed??
I am totally confussed~
Oh Jesus~ I trusted you since I am in kindergarten~
Can you juz give me smtg I really want??
Is love~
A love from my leader and sister~
Pls help me God,
if not,
I am so confussed...
I am not happy after that camp... why??
I dunno~
I am so scared..Jesus must believe me!! I do trust Jesus since I was a little kid...
Now, I dunno wat am I afraid of~
BUt...
I really trust~
and anyway~
thx Jesus and God for giving me a chance to noe each other through this camp~
but say smtg that I dun like~
I am jealous of my leader~
Whenever she says that small boy cute, I am so angry~
I dun even cooperate v that kid
I am sry Jesus~
I noe I am over jealous and so selfish~
I should think of my group~
Jesus I trust you~ really!! since I was a little kid~
Well~
I am not so sure what and I dun understand all these things~
abit confussing~ But I believe there are GOd and Jesus>.<
anyway~
this blog is not bout that =.=
cum back to the topic~
Juz now,
when I am in love,
I am trying to sit near her and attract her attention...
I sit near her~
until veeeerrryyy near~
=.=
her leg put on my leg!! =.=
I dunno why I liked her~
Maybe she enough siao~
Like my style >.<
I dunno why I felt smtg in her~
She is a gud person~
I think~
She said smtg in front of all~
She said our group used to loose every time, but she is very happy when she saw her teammate
work together and dun even sad or give up when we loose..
BUt we run to another station happily~
That time I was so touched~
I want to cry!!
=.=
And she said that this is the 1st time she loose until so happy~
And I dunno why after I go that camp,I found myself~
I am so happy >.<
Maybe its cuz of you Jesus~
thx Jesus~ and God ofcuz ^^
And maybe its cuz of her >.<
thx Sze Min and GOd~
She hold my hands and hugged me and say that I am cute~
I felt that I am so frenly and really I dun felt that I am a ppl that no use~
thx Jesus again and leader>.<
She hold my hands when sings~
and hug me cuz I am cute?? xD
Jesus~
I am so happy to have a leader like that~
She is so funny and give me lots of nice and happy memories~
Her sound so sexy~ =.=
Maybe she is not cute, not pretty
but all I see is she is a very gud leader and a very cute + sexy~~~ ppl =.= xD
Anyway~
I dunno why I juz felt that she is super great!!
Jesus~
1st thx for giving us a chace to noe each other~
and that little president~
she is damn cute too^^
she rmb my name!!
lolx~
anyway~ thx her for sharing such a wonderful story~
and thx for her singing~
touched until I wanna cry~ and all my hair stands up xD
THis is a great camp~
^.^
thx Jesus~
I juz hope that next yr they can cum too^^
I am sry for cant join the club~
I got band~
This two days I felt like living in another world~
I noe that this world~
beside band, still have many worlds that are fun^.^
thx Jesus~