I love you

Im really afraid of loosing you :( 

Im that girl who can go on and on ignoring what others said yes Im stubborn because I love you I dont care I just want you. I hate this bad feeling I hate this feeling I don't know what happened but God please I wish nothing will happens between us I need you I need her and nothing will happens please. Amen

I was chosen!!

I was chosen!! :)
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. . .
And I don't know what kind of feeling I'm having now, shouldn't I be happy?
I get a chance to beat that bitch right ~
But I was confussed with my mixed up feelings..
Anyway,
thank you God =)
Thank you for reading my mind and giving me a bright pathway to go through
I swear to you I'll never repeat that mistake
I will try to do my best
Just forgive all my sins
And most importantly I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart not just giving me a crazy chance but also letting me to meet her when I really miss her =3
My heart was like fulfilled with loves ~
=]
She even push my hair and talk to me and still try to make me smile
I think so. . . I really hope that everything she do is wish for the best for me ;)
It's been such a long time we didn't have this kind of fun memories and action haha
I should've push her back but she was taller than me and kind of in a serious situation that time
just quit it, another one is there ~
Anyway really thank you so much God!! :D I thought I will never had that chance anymore =3
and I thought that she don't care anymore
Well she do I know but I'm kind of jealous when I'm so sensitive about she cares for others more
Hmm.. that's just my thinking
I hope..
I didn't want to be like this. please forgive me
And it's hard for me to explain my feelings right now
I'm confussed with my own life
God please save me.



I really. . . never thought that this will happen.
But however, I feel like my life is empty, my heart is empty and I'm soulless. .
When will my parents stop?
They're just ughh I don't wanna say
They mess up with my life man
And now I really need to release my anger.. Like right now
Anyway, thank you God for everything you've done to me =]

Friends and Sisters

As a friend or sister...even junior,

I didnt do whatever I should do

Friends~

I really cannot stand Chian Huey eat or walk with Ru Qi

Its juz simply ridiculous!!

Chian Huey asked me not to be so sensitive anymore~

But I'm really sorry

Just a picture

The truth is. . .
I'm jealous of this photo

because
1# I'm standing in front alone
2# I'm not standing next to Su Hwei (I'm not trying to 'po' her)
3# See who's she hugging?
4# See them? so happy, well I'm not!! ='(


I don't want to behave like this but this photo left me no choice =(
I mustn't show it so. . .
think positive think positive girl~
SHE LOVES YOU omg my little girl SHE LOVES YOU!! SATISHFIED?
You sit bus with her, comment together,chat together
You love her, go get her yourself man

Don't be jealous no more =]
Well I believe you have deeper relationships with her
Believe it, one day you're going to hug her tight
And God will treat you well =]
Oh God, just forgive me for my sins
save me.. I don't want to suffer from this
I do care about her
but. . .
I don't know..
missing her is like burning myself on fire
please save me. .

arghhh..
It hurts ='(

Change

see the change in me??
1st week of holiday and after school reopen!!
I still prefer the fierce fierce me
hope the fierce fierce me faster cum back
i really nid it for marching~
i m serious

Change

There's a big change in me
FRom the 1st week of holiday
I stop admire anyone in this band and in this world
That time I'm the most fierce ever in life
I never saw myself so fierce b4
until the 2nd week
I still very yeng,very fierce cuz
I think that she is very yeng
I wanna learn from her
That time I start to admire her

after school reopen
I have a new hair cut
I m so yeng so fierce in my old haircut
cuz it covers half of my face
after new hair cut I bcame so cute n not fierce anymore

I even smile whenever think of her

I wish I can continue admire her cuz I really can learn many things from her
But at the same time I want the fierce fierce me faster come back
please??

Save me from love

Blog arh blog
Its been days I din't update u ==
I never let people read you eh~
eccepts for some frenz
but seems that they doesn't noe how to take care of the chance
nobody read you blog
I love you blog
but people love my misery blog
funny
anyway this blog only for jesus to read ~
I love Jesus

I practice for days
and I found that
since holiday
our relationship start to bcum worst and worst
and today finally smtg terrible happened in me
I dun like my sister so much anymore
in fact
I start to realize I'm falling with Su-Hwei
its a terrible mistake
she already have one in her heart
I...
Today when walking formation
suddenly feel that she is so yeng~
since last time I went to sarawak
we keep on texting every day
even talk in the phone
I...
start to like her that time
but now
today after walked finished everything
after I felt that she is so yeng
when we rest
I sit at the back and I sit in front beside her ><
when eating I choose the place sitting bside her
gosh
hope this love fast fast over
and ee teng eh fast fast cum back
what am i doing?!
I loved jia yi
then now su hwei?!
changed?!
==
Save me
really jesus save me!!
fall in love with her
what if she scold me??
I mah sad die??

btw she is so yeng today=3
aww...
add oil=D
i juz read her blog
ha!! talking bout saxophonist last time went out =D