I was chosen!!

I was chosen!! :)
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. . .
And I don't know what kind of feeling I'm having now, shouldn't I be happy?
I get a chance to beat that bitch right ~
But I was confussed with my mixed up feelings..
Anyway,
thank you God =)
Thank you for reading my mind and giving me a bright pathway to go through
I swear to you I'll never repeat that mistake
I will try to do my best
Just forgive all my sins
And most importantly I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart not just giving me a crazy chance but also letting me to meet her when I really miss her =3
My heart was like fulfilled with loves ~
=]
She even push my hair and talk to me and still try to make me smile
I think so. . . I really hope that everything she do is wish for the best for me ;)
It's been such a long time we didn't have this kind of fun memories and action haha
I should've push her back but she was taller than me and kind of in a serious situation that time
just quit it, another one is there ~
Anyway really thank you so much God!! :D I thought I will never had that chance anymore =3
and I thought that she don't care anymore
Well she do I know but I'm kind of jealous when I'm so sensitive about she cares for others more
Hmm.. that's just my thinking
I hope..
I didn't want to be like this. please forgive me
And it's hard for me to explain my feelings right now
I'm confussed with my own life
God please save me.



I really. . . never thought that this will happen.
But however, I feel like my life is empty, my heart is empty and I'm soulless. .
When will my parents stop?
They're just ughh I don't wanna say
They mess up with my life man
And now I really need to release my anger.. Like right now
Anyway, thank you God for everything you've done to me =]