I was chosen!!

I was chosen!! :)
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. . .
And I don't know what kind of feeling I'm having now, shouldn't I be happy?
I get a chance to beat that bitch right ~
But I was confussed with my mixed up feelings..
Anyway,
thank you God =)
Thank you for reading my mind and giving me a bright pathway to go through
I swear to you I'll never repeat that mistake
I will try to do my best
Just forgive all my sins
And most importantly I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart not just giving me a crazy chance but also letting me to meet her when I really miss her =3
My heart was like fulfilled with loves ~
=]
She even push my hair and talk to me and still try to make me smile
I think so. . . I really hope that everything she do is wish for the best for me ;)
It's been such a long time we didn't have this kind of fun memories and action haha
I should've push her back but she was taller than me and kind of in a serious situation that time
just quit it, another one is there ~
Anyway really thank you so much God!! :D I thought I will never had that chance anymore =3
and I thought that she don't care anymore
Well she do I know but I'm kind of jealous when I'm so sensitive about she cares for others more
Hmm.. that's just my thinking
I hope..
I didn't want to be like this. please forgive me
And it's hard for me to explain my feelings right now
I'm confussed with my own life
God please save me.



I really. . . never thought that this will happen.
But however, I feel like my life is empty, my heart is empty and I'm soulless. .
When will my parents stop?
They're just ughh I don't wanna say
They mess up with my life man
And now I really need to release my anger.. Like right now
Anyway, thank you God for everything you've done to me =]

Friends and Sisters

As a friend or sister...even junior,

I didnt do whatever I should do

Friends~

I really cannot stand Chian Huey eat or walk with Ru Qi

Its juz simply ridiculous!!

Chian Huey asked me not to be so sensitive anymore~

But I'm really sorry

Just a picture

The truth is. . .
I'm jealous of this photo

because
1# I'm standing in front alone
2# I'm not standing next to Su Hwei (I'm not trying to 'po' her)
3# See who's she hugging?
4# See them? so happy, well I'm not!! ='(


I don't want to behave like this but this photo left me no choice =(
I mustn't show it so. . .
think positive think positive girl~
SHE LOVES YOU omg my little girl SHE LOVES YOU!! SATISHFIED?
You sit bus with her, comment together,chat together
You love her, go get her yourself man

Don't be jealous no more =]
Well I believe you have deeper relationships with her
Believe it, one day you're going to hug her tight
And God will treat you well =]
Oh God, just forgive me for my sins
save me.. I don't want to suffer from this
I do care about her
but. . .
I don't know..
missing her is like burning myself on fire
please save me. .

arghhh..
It hurts ='(